I wish I was a sexy motherfucker… Like a contender for the sexiest man alive award… Idfk why though. 

I’m weird. Don’t fucking hate. Everyone wishes. I wish I looked half decent, and could get one of those drop-dead gorgeous girls…

This girl… She’s so. Fucking. Fine. And she’s pretty, smart, cute, gorgeous, and athletic. I wish I could work up the nerves to ask her on a date…

I don’t go into relationships, or even talking to girls, with the intent on getting “pictures”, blow jobs, or pussy. I go into them with the intent on making a positive impact on some girls life by attempting to be different. I see all these beautiful girls complaining about this guy treating them like shit, when it’s the girls fault for letting him. Anyways, I chose to be different, and I hope that one day one gorgeous girl will see that and give me a chance.

This is really bothering me, so I am going to let it all out below. Read to find out.

These kids: Rayce and Riley. My brother has grown up with Rayce in cub scouts, and so have I since I went to all the events. This was 7 years ago. Riley always came with Rayce. I’ve known them for a while. I’ve known their mom and dad just as long. Their dad Shawn is one of the nicest people I’ve ever met, and their mom is pretty. They always got along, their mom and dad. They never fought, at least from what I saw. I don’t think they had anything between them; or so I though.

Well they got a divorce. Rayce was sad everytime I saw him, and he almost dropped out of scouts. I would see Rayce’s mom drop him off at scout meetings, and then his dad come and pick them up. Everytime Rayce would see his dad, they would hug for a few minutes, and exchange some words. It was sad. Rayce’s dad would drop him off, and they would hug for the longest time, Rayce not wanting to let go, like a 5 year old going to preschool. I soon found out they got divorced, and I have no clue why. This broke my heart. It hurt the kids more than anything. Rayce is forever changed by his parents divorce, and so is Riley. They are two beautiful kids, and their are faced with the issue of divorce for the rest of their life.

This past weekend, I talked to Rayce about the divorce, as it has been several month’s. He is different than he was before the divorce, but he claims to be over it. I asked about his sister, and he said she has problems. He doesn’t understand. I feel so bad for Shawn, because I think it was his ex-wife that wanted the divorce. He is one of the coolest people I have ever met. The whole thing just tears my heart to pieces.

I feel unendless, unmerciful, unwaivering, undending compassion for the entire Meritt family. Brandy the mom, Shawn the Dad, Rayce the son, and Riley the daughter. A beautiful family has been broken. In my opinion, divorce of a family is worse than death in a family, as divorce tears a family apart, while a death brings the family closer. I don’t think I can feel anymore compassion for this family. It brings sadness and pain to my heart when I think about the kids, and the separated parents. The relationships that are torn, and the people that are changed. It just almost drives me crazy that this has happened, especially to the pretty daughter Riley, and the stud looking son Rayce. I hope I can be an influence in the upside down lives of these kids.

I wish I had one person that cared. One person that truly cared about me. One person that took time out of their day to ask me how mine was going, and expected a real answer; something other than “Good” or “Fine”, because that is what I do. I want to know how your day is going, truthfully. Not “Good”. All I ask for is someone to genuinely care about me…